It’s not about Me… It’s about Jesus!
As I stood in the 4/5 room this past Sunday. I was listening to all the kids sing “Nobody by Casting Crowns” We have sung the song on and off for a month now. They seem to really be picking it up. Me however I have just been “singing”. You know the singing where you don’t remember what you just sang because you are distracted by so much more, (the kids, your leaders, how loud your voice is in the mic, etc.) This was me more times than not while leading in the 4/5. For some reason, this week the words of the song stuck with me;
Why You ever chose me
Has always been a mystery
All my life, I've been told I belong
At the end of a line
With all the other Not-Quites
With all the Never-Get-It-Rights
But it turns out they are the ones You were looking for
All this time
Maybe it, because I had some negative words, said about me? Or because I fill my plate too full of stuff to accomplish? I also at some point probably felt not worthy of truly leading these young individuals.
It was honestly all of those, the past couple weeks were tough for me, for multiple reasons and I didn’t understand why God had chosen me.
What a silly thing for me to think. First of all, my whole blog is about who you are in Christ and how he has called you unique and different. No matter what you struggle with. No matter how down you feel about who you are, God made you perfect for his will, his work. I need to choose to believe that.
Cause I'm just a nobody trying to tell everybody
All about Somebody who saved my soul
Ever since You rescued me, You gave my heart a song to sing
I'm living for the world to see nobody but Jesus
I'm living for the world to see nobody but Jesus
Second, I am here to fight, I am here to show others the love of Christ. I will probably (I am) having hardships in my personal life but God called me to something greater and He is calling me to keep going to shine his light!
It’s not about me… It’s about Jesus
Now don’t get me wrong.
I am allowed to struggle and hurt but I also need to see/work on moving past/beyond that for the good that God is doing in me.
I can’t let the hurt, overwhelming, and the “why you” feelings win. I can’t let it consume me to the point that I lose sight of what God it is doing through me.
2 Corinthians 4:8-12
“ 8 We are hard-pressed on every side, but not crushed; perplexed, but not in despair; 9 persecuted, but not abandoned; struck down, but not destroyed. 10 We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body. 11 For we who are alive are always being given over to death for Jesus’ sake, so that his life may also be revealed in our mortal body.12 So then, death is at work in us, but life is at work in you.”
God has always called us to something greater. We need to work through it all so Jesus can be present in our lives! I love what it says right before the chorus: But it turns out they are the ones You were looking for
All this time
ALL THIS TIME… He knew, he knew you would be struggling with what you were struggling BUT he still called you. He knew he could count on you! He could still use you even if you didn’t/ don’t believe it yourself!
Psalms 119:74-77 (NIV)
"May those who fear you rejoice when they see me,
for I have put my hope in your word.
75 I know, Lord, that your laws are righteous,
and that in faithfulness you have afflicted me.
76 May your unfailing love be my comfort,
according to your promise to your servant.
77 Let your compassion come to me that I may live,
for your law is my delight."
I love how The Message version (MSG) puts it;
“When they see me waiting, expecting your Word,
those who fear you will take heart and be glad.
I can see now, God, that your decisions are right;
your testing has taught me what’s true and right.
Oh, love me—and right now!—hold me tight!
just the way you promised.
Now comfort me so I can live, really live;
your revelation is the tune I dance to.”
Not only does He know we are struggling but he has also chosen to teach us in that. He then will come and comfort us in our hardship and work through us.
So, what are you're struggling with? What might you be questioning God has you going through right now?
How can I help you? Comment below, I would love to pray for you, or even help talk you through that!
